Hmm

You know what? I miss my friends.

The last few weeks of the semester, I barely got to hang out with people as much as I wanted to. I had so many plans in mind to do things with people, and they fell through. Many times, it was because I bitched out at the last minute.

Right now, I miss the hell out of Ben and Lauren. Recently, I found that Lauren felt the same way. What can I say about that? Well, I'm a bad friend. I have no sense of balance when it comes to priorities, and although I think I have a talent for multi-tasking, I have no talent deciding exactly what I should multi-task. I remember clearly making a vow that I should always keep my friends, my family, and my life above work and education, because in the end, that's all that really matters. Well, I messed up big time and stabbed myself in the back with a scheduling planner.

I miss Lauren. I miss Ben. I remember thinking that after they were together it was harder for me to see or hang out with them, but now I realize that I was just assuming that was the situation. They made it clear to me that they care about me (and way more than they probably should) and so I really needed to just man-up and ask what they were up to.

My college life is coming slowly to an end, and I will never forgive myself if I just let them become chapters in that book.

Now I'm off to go see Pirates, and I'll probably talk to them tomorrow.
Not probably. Definitely.

Friends are a difficult thing... it feels like that stupid scene at the end of Titanic when Leonardo DiCaprio slips off the wreckage and drowns in the sea. Only for me, it's a dozen DiCaprio's on a dozen different seas, and I'm trying to make the movie a happy ending.

I love you guys.