jeez

computer skills? I can't even fix my own damn computer.
musical skills? I can't write one damn song beginning to end.
social skills? Hi, my name is Matt, i live in my room all day and i don't know where everyone is.
self-esteem? It's making the Hindenburg look like a Disney cruise.


Seriously, what the hell is going? I'm starting to feel more and more like this summer will be nothing but miserable for me. I have no way of getting money, and I'm feeling like crap. On top of that is the paranoia that i'm just gaining weight and becoming less and less attractive.

I really just need someone to come up to me and say "Matt, I know you've tried all this self-help crap, but seriously, shape the fuck up. I'm here for you, I care about you a helluva lot, but you gotta get out of this misery bull, it isn't' pretty."

I'm still waiting for the days that'll balance out these shitty ones.